“The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You
trade in your reality for a role. You trade in your sense for an act.
You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. There
can't be any large-scale revolution until there's a personal revolution,
on an individual level. It's got to happen inside first.”
― Jim Morrison
Putting down my mask means exposing my vulnerability in front of others, I'd rather die than let it happens
I have a collection of them, let me give you a tour
The head of family C
She's a good girl, as a first child, tries to be a role model to her sibling, a best friend to her mother, a good daughter to her father. She was the middle man when her parent went separate ways, always tries to console both, and trying to control her siblings
The Senior C
Quite famous in her previous schools, smart, friendly, joined a few extra curricular activities, donate a few trophy for her schools. She went to US, Europe and Australia with full scholarships, fluent in English, adequate french, got enrolled into a famous university, took one of the hardest major, teach in her spare time, was in Student bodies and was the only freshman in the organizational structure in the faculty's famous club.
The fighter C
Left home on the age of 20 and live alone ever since, university student by day, worker by night, had sleep deprivation, living on deadlines and instant noodles and occasional loans from fellow student to get by.
The worker C
Got recruited by one of local telecommunication company before even graduating, had a job offer by the time she has to finish her final assignment, started working a day after graduation, passed the test as government employee, bored and got recruited by one of the biggest hotel in Indonesia. Tough personality, wont take any BS, admit mistakes, willing to work overtime, friendly, childish and likes to be mentored of by seniors at office.
The Lover C
Cooks, cleans, listen, likes to pamper and be pampered, enjoys hours of cuddling and talking
The Party C
Drinks, get drunk, smokes, dance like crazy, a bit slutty when the alcohol level increase, no matter how drunk still could think clearly, just sometimes pretend not to to attracts the opposite sex.
The Friendly C
Has a tight circle of friend that understands and connected to each other, never takes anything personal, straight best friend shall not be boy friend policy, ready to listen, likes to hang out, have coffee and talks about nonsense.
Other C's
You might see her occasionally, depends on the situation and the mood
But by the time I reach home and take off the mask and be comfortable in my own skin, I don't want to do anything, see anyone or talk to anybody. I love a few and trust none, I make mental notes about people, I am a loner, with self esteem issue, and trust problem.
Which one you'll rather see?
