TIME ... THE HEALER

2009 was the year

Now I'm counting the time passed 2010 ... 2011 ... 2012 ...2013 four, almost five years now

Did I moved on? depends ... what's your definition of moved on

Did I date? yes several times

Did I fall in love again? ................................................................................................................................

I guess not

Do I still love him? ......................................................................................................................................

I guess so

I would like to bitch slap myself for being stupid, I want to squeeze that sucker of a heart of mine that wouldn't let go, but that will mean I'll die, and I'm quite fond of life.

I'm trying to remember who it is that told me time will heal, either they lie or I just haven't have enough of time

I wonder, how many years does a heart can ache?

Maybe the reasoning behind is that I haven't found somebody better than him, that's the only logical explanation I have in my pocket at the moment

But then again, if I used him as perimeter .... I'm screwed, of course nobody's like him, we're human, not clones, d'uh

I guess what time gives me is acceptance, the pain is still there, but after feeling it for years now I'm used to it, not that painful anymore, it kinda grows on me, it numbs me

Now I'm used to not having him by my side,

Awake without his smile

Not listening his corny joke

Try to understand when he sulks

Enjoying the way he endeavour food

I'm used to.... being without him