SUCKER PUNCH

Sucker Punch

"It primarily involves a closed fist contacting the soft underbelly of a person (beneath the rib cage) at a high velocity, causing the ensuing force to press upward on the victim's diaphragm, leading to a sudden expulsion of air from the victim's mouth and lungs. This opening blow leaves the victim open to various other attacks, often leading to what would be called "bitch moves" because of the defenseless nature of the victim."

Yea that's about it....

I have over 200 songs on my MP3, two of those song, I have no idea why I put it there, describes exactly my feeling on one night of October 2009. The first reason I made this blog, my biggest heartbreak.

Out of the over 200 songs, against all the odds, the two song was playing one after another as if the universe was testing me, am I over it?

The answer is no....

The first song is the Corrs feat Alejandro Sanz - The Hardest Day, lets play it for a bit

"One more day, one last look

Before I leave it all behind

And play the role that's meant for us

That said we'd say goodbye"

Second Song Maroon 5 - daylight

"Here I am waiting, I’ll have to leave soon, why am I holdin’ on

We knew this day would come, we knew it all along

How did it come so fast

This is our last night, but it’s late and I’m tryin’ not to sleep

‘Cuz I know, when I wake I will have to slip away"

Two songs, two different era, sucker punch me out of nowhere and just squeezed up the happy self confident woman and left me empty like a depleted balloon.

I can really remember that night, every detail, every touch, every kiss, every smile, the sad look in his eye, and the sound of my heart smashed into pieces

Felt like it was just yesterday

I feel marques houston when he sing that song circles

I would be lying if I said I didn't moved on, I dated, get me some bf, have fun, have some laugh, sleep around, okay maybe not that much, I'm just tryin to make a point.

I finally understand that piece he took, I will never get it back, it will be with him forever. The best thing I can do is make do with the rest and try to love again. I have a big heart and I have so much to give, though I know the pain and the cracks will still be there, I'll survive.

My heart is ugly, it's broken and glued together everywhere, it got cracks and holes, and I know it's not a pretty thing to give to somebody. But I hope, one day, somebody will come and claim it, protect it like it's a precious and fragile thing, even though it's ugly, but he don't mind, he like it as it is. And at that moment, I know I'm his and my life is for him